*Big Tears*

Jane e-mailed and told me she posted a blog about Uncle Mike.

I cannot even BEGIN to express my gratitude for the prayers… and I can’t even FIND the words to express what you peeps mean to me.  I’ve never ever before in my life seen a community such as this where people give/receive support, not just in our weight loss efforts, but in every path of our lives.  It’s overwhelming the love I see here.

It doesn’t look good for my uncle, and he’s asked me to help him write a will, as he doesn’t have the money to pay an attorney to do it.  This is perhaps the most painful thing I’ve ever agreed to do.  Even agreeing to be the executor of pulling the plug if it came to that last time was not as painful as this is.  It’s like someone just jerking that rug right out from under you feet… the blunt realization that I WILL lose him to this agressive cancer.  I’m numb with the thought of it.  BUT… there is a bright side (there’s ALWAYS) a bright side.  My uncle spent months after his last surgery struggling with his cancer and losing his personality and zest for life… those very traits in him that make me say he’s my FAV uncle.  He finally found his footing again, and has become his old self.  This news of it coming back has not deterred that, and for that I’m so very very grateful.  I don’t think I could bear to see him suffer the emotional trials again.  Even with this news, he is happy and living his life and is a joy to be around.  His hair has grown back from the chemo and he was at the house joking about it the other night.  For the first time, he has chest hair!  And he opens up his shirt and shows me where he has shaved a Superman emblem in it. THAT’S my Uncle Mike that I know and love. 

Angry at God?  No way.  On the contrary, I’m very thankful that He saved him when he bled out twice on that operating table last time, and gave us more time together. 

I’m running on here.  Anyway, you guys, THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOO much for the prayers.  I’m truly grateful.

When/if these 55 hour weeks at work let up, I’ll be back on this site with Buttercup HUGGGGGGGS for days… my promise to you.

LOVE AND HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS,
Shan 

14 Comments so far

  1. harleygirl @ March 26th, 2009

    I love you! And I’m praying for you…

  2. ready4change @ March 26th, 2009

    Praying for the strength you need to get through this; praying for focus when you help him write his will; praying for peace and happiness as you enjoy the rest of the time you have to spend with your uncle! God never gives us anything that we can’t handle!

  3. khmerbeauty @ March 26th, 2009

    I missed you!!!!!!! We all missed you!

    Thank you for coming on and sharing with us your grief and the love of your uncle Mike! Heck I feel like I know Mike.

    ((((((((((((((SHANNA)))))))))))

    As if crying about Anj isn’t making my eyes big and fat I sit here and do it again for you and Uncle Mike.

    Yes, we all miss your hugs. :(

  4. coolbird30 @ March 26th, 2009

    Praying for you..

  5. JustJane47 @ March 26th, 2009

    Me too Nancy…. tears for Shanna and tears for Anj, my eyes are so red and bloodshot, people will think I’ve been smoking the funny stuff.

    Shanna, I’m just so sorry. Uncle Mike sounds like such a fun person, you are blessed to have him. And he is so blessed to have you :)

    He left you in charge Shanna because he knew you were strong, and most of all truthful and honest.

    My prayers are with you on this sad day. Always remember this too, we’ll all be with Uncle Mike someday :)
    Love you so very much
    Jane :)

  6. TerisJourney @ March 26th, 2009

    Kama eluded to it in her blog,but I just have to add “Trust in the Lord…” Proverbs 3:5

    Love & Hugs!

  7. Lori @ March 26th, 2009

    You and your uncle and family are in my prayers.

    You’ve really been missed but I know you’ve had a lot going on.

    It’s great to hear that your uncle is back to his old self, the great guy you know and love so much.
    He sounds like a real character and special man.
    I am happy you have more time with him.
    That is a blessing.

    You take care Shan
    Luv ya
    Lori

  8. somemansdream @ March 26th, 2009

    These guys have said it all. Prayers for you & your family. Your uncle sounds like a hell of a man. We have missed ya. Take care…and you tell your uncle we said hi ok. Much love, debbie

  9. kamaperry @ March 26th, 2009

    You know you have my prayers, love you much. Value and savor your time together, ok? I will always treasure the time I had with mom and dad.
    Love you much, lady.

  10. nana4 @ March 26th, 2009

    Sending lots of good thoughts and prayers!
    Big HUGS

  11. kyliejo @ March 26th, 2009

    Wow I remember you talking about him. I am sorry to hear the bad news but know that you will all be strong and together and am glad for that. I’ll be sending good thoughts your way.

  12. Jennifer @ March 26th, 2009

    Now I see where you get many of your awesome qualities like your sense of humor and spirit. Super big hugs to you my friend. *daisies*

  13. beckyboo @ March 26th, 2009

    Definitely praying for your uncle sweetie. And you and the rest of your family too.

  14. astrongnewme @ April 1st, 2009

    I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family as well. I work in a hospice, and I am so glad he found his footing again and that you have this time together.

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