Work BL Contest (8 week weigh in) and a HUGGGGGGGG
Another 5 1/2 pounds gone! Currently running in 2nd place, total of 14.5 pounds lost since January 1, and 4 more weeks of this contest to go. I’m very pleased. Eating God’s food that He provides on this earth is one of the BEST things I ever did for myself.
My weekend girls trip with my sister turned to crap. Planned on going to see a semi-pro hockey game. We never made it. Drove 2 1/2 hours to her house. Within 1 hour she was drunk, couldn’t even get me out of her neighborhood to meet up with the other women to make the trip to the hockey game. She chose to drink. I chose to drive 2 1/2 hours back home. Very emotional time. I hurt for her and her struggle with alcoholism. In a way, it was a turning point in my life that night. She’s always… all my life… been able to back me in a corner and make me feel like the one that is in the wrong. Always. And I’ve always allowed it. Always been the one to back down, say I’m sorry, keep the peace. When she pointed fingers at me this time for “giving up on her and leaving her”, something inside me clicked. No anger or dissapointment left in me. Told her I love her and I will never ever give up on her. I also told her I no longer choose to let HER choices take me down into emotional hell. I’ve done everything I can do for her. Gave her my own personal testimony (never before have done this with any other person), poured my heart out, been there to listen, prayed for her. There’s nothing left I can do. It’s hard to admit that, but it is what it is. Why I’m writing this here I don’t know. Maybe because I recognize that it was a turning point in my life and my own self-worth issues. Not letting her run MY show for the first time. Even at this middle age stage in my life, I recognize that there is still room for my own growth, and however painful it my be sometimes, I hope I continue to grow until the day I pass from this earth.
Colt has his first track meet today. I’m excited beyond description. Another point of reflection for me. 3 generations… my dad, me, and now my son. Seems like just yesterday I was holding and rocking him in my arms, and here he is 6′ tall, 13 years old, finding his own little nitch in school, actually excited about competing and loving it. The coaches entered him in the 100 meter, the 400 meter, the 400 meter relay, the long jump, and the triple jump. I’m pumped up in joy for him. Brings back so many track memories of my own. I hope it instills in him what it did in me… a healthy competitive spirit, determination, honor, integrity, and discipline.
The HUGGGGGSSSS? Just because. I’m a hugger. People that know me here know that I hug. It’s just who I am. Our sense of touch is so important. Established a long time ago somewhere in our childhood the physical embrace of family is our first memory of being hugged and loved. Suddenly our connectivity to the human race has relevance as we discover our need for others. Hugging sends a message that communicates friendship, love, support, romance, or merely a greeting of some kind. A hug also tells others they are valuable and important to you. A hug can be a comfort in painful times, reestablish friendship or merely be a way to say, “Hello, I’ve missed you.” Scripture tells us to “love one another.” It is probably the most important commandment of all. Hugging someone tells them things are going to be okay.
I hugged my son this morning. I hugged my dad goodbye. I hugged my husband even though I knew I was going to see him in a few minutes at work.
I urge you to hug someone today. See how good it feels…
Huggggggggggggggggggggggggggggs everyBUDDY,
Shan
Treat everyone with politeness, even those who are rude to you; not because they are nice, but because you are. (Author Unknown)
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HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGSSSS!!First can I say you made my day…just seeing little miss Buttercup up there made me smile
Im sorry for what happened with your sister…it sounds like you absolutly did the best thing…and sharing your testimony…BIG! You never know how God will use that in her life…Im praying it will happen soon.
Love you Shan and miss seeing you here as much…but understand.
OH and congrats on Colt with the track!!
Heya, I feel absolutely the same about the impromptu contest run at work! I am starting on Week 7 now with 6 more to go, and yep, that really helped me to get over the apathy and finally get rid of the conception/pregnancy bulge. You are doing awsome!!!
So enjoyed your blog this morning - so refreshing. Praying for your sister. I think you did what you had to do - for you. Best wishes to Colt.
Hugs forever! Have a great day!
I love it when you say “Huggs!”
Wow look at you go! You are doing really great! Almost at goal!
Sorry about your sister, that is hard. Alcohol is a hard drug to deal with.
BUT I am happy about your son, he is going to have a great time. Being involved in school is SO important.
OMGoodness…watch out now….here I come Ms. Chunky….RUNNING RUNNING QUICKER NOW….jumping into Shanna’s arms almost knocking the poor girl down and I’m giving the BIGGEST HUG —- so big she’s turning blue..LOL…ok…theres my hug for the day. “WHEW” hehehehehe
From one hugger to another….gosh I love ya Shanna. You just know how to brighten my day!!!
I’m so sorry to hear about your sister. I think some e-mail got mixed up, I had written about her. Darn….I feel mixed…sick and sad at the same time. I’ll continue to pray for her, and I’m sad your weekend turned out this way
But I truly believe you have done the right thing. Isn’t it funny how certain “things just click” I know right where you are coming from.
Actually I have someone in my life I feel the same about. Oh well one day at a time right.
And did I hear right?????????? 14.5 pounds!!!! OMG Girlfriend…your rockin Texas LOL!!!!
I’m so proud of you, I’m so glad I took time to read your blog. You’ve made my day (as you always do )
One last thing, that quote at the end…I stumbled upon a site with quotes, and that one was there, love it
Go Colton!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m so excited for him. What an awesome kid Shanna, I can feel your joy and pride in him and the excitement is just pouring through my screen.
Love ya bunches
Jane
Happy moments Don’t forget me; Difficult moments ~ Trust me; Quiet moments ~ call me; Painful moments Tell me; Every moment ~ I bless you
Woops, one last thing….I have some questions and advice…if you get a chance can you read my blog today??????????? PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE!!!!
HHHHUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGSSSSSSSSS!!!
Oh Shan, I am so in support of you with your sister, She has to take responsibilty for her own actions. I love that you planted a seed with her with your testimony.
Good luck to Colt, and congrats on your loss!
I don’t know what happened to my comment…is it in your moderation folder or do I have to retype the WHOLE thing? Okay, well if you need it again just pop me a message. I came back into your blog to congratulate you on your loss!!! That’s huge!!! So now it’s GO COLT AND GO SHAN!!!