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Today starts with a bowl of low fat cottage cheese, a snack pack of sugar free cherry jello thrown in, along with a handful of fresh blueberries chopped pecans.  Hits the spot.

Lots of stretching this morning.  Felt really good.  My body has been aching a lot lately.  Hot HOT shower and took my time instead of rushing…. ahhhhhhh.  I get off work early today, and promise myself to walk the perimeter of my property at least one time.  This is up and downhill and should invigorate me.  It will be about 2 miles the path that I walk.  With the breeze blowing today and the leaves raining down, it should be just what my heart needs.

Studying the Bible this morning and lots of prayer… put me in a good spot for the day. Why I tend to slack on this when I get down on myself is beyond me.  That’s when I need it the most. 

Lots of water today.   LOADS of it.  My body is crying out for it.  When the weather starts cooling off, I tend to slack in this area.  Will make a conscious effort today.

Balance… physical, mental, spiritual.  It’s all be out of whack lately.  Only way I’m going to get it back is to DO something about it.  My life, I own it.  It’s the choices I make.  Period.  Nobody gonna do it for me.  I teach that to my son.  It’s time for me to starting practicing what I preach. 

I got lost.  But I’m on my way BACK!  Two road diverged in a yellow wood…

 Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls.
~Jeremiah 6:16~

*BIG SMILES*

HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS,
Shan

That’s what seems to be the appropriate costume for me this year.  I’m going through some horrible depression right now.  I’m clawing my way out.  My emotions and hormones have been on the rollercoaster ride from hell, and I’ve got to find a solution to this.  Hormone replacement therapy was not the ticket.  Swelling of fingers, toes, hands, knees, ankles, just about every joint, and blood pressure went up.  St. John’s Wort I found to be just the ticket to level me out, but the constipation side effect was horrid.  So I’m still looking.  I’ve not been around here lately for these reasons.  In a fit of hormones the other day, I even deleted all my blogs.  I saved one.  It was worth saving, and I think it’s worth repeating…. I think it’s a great “START AGAIN” blog.  I think it’s a great reminder to me why I joined this site in the first place.  Hopefully, I will be back to my old self soon… cause I sure don’t like the one I am right now. HA!

Hugggggggggs,
Shan

The only blog I saved, from early on at this site…
 

Warning Warning.  This is a motivational blog.  Harsh, but motivational, so if you don’t feel like “facing” issues… please don’t read.

 This is written for me.  If anyone else gets anything out of it, then that’s just a bonus in my book.

I can’t……

I’m tired……

It hurts……..

I don’t have time……

It’s raining……

This is too hard……..

I don’t careeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee………..

 Conversation with self –

So you are back from vacation.  You haven’t been on routine for 2 weeks.  You were not able to stick with diet plan while traveling and visiting the in-laws.  You GAINED a pound.  Hmmmmm, not too bad.  So I’ll just skip a few more days, eat that leftover birthday cake for breakfast, I’m too tired to fix breakfast…. sleep in this one time…. a few more days of slipping and sliding won’t hurt.  I mean, I only gained a pound in the last two weeks, right?

REALLY?  It won’t HURT?  Who told you that, your arteries?  Your heart?  Your stiff joints?  The last time you LISTENED to that side of your brain, missy, you gained far more than one pound.  You put on 15, and I might remind you that you not only put on 15 pounds, but you felt like crap… you got lazy.  You had no energy.  You got crabby at EVERYONE.  You got crabby at yourself for not reaching your goal, AND you had a “I don’t give a sh*t attitude” about everything.  Do you REALLY REALLY REALLY want to go down that road again?  It took you MONTHS to get up the guts to step up to the plate and face your issues and even TAKE that first step.  You wait for months again, what kind of shape do you think you will be in by then?  Maybe THIS time you will gain back that 11 you’ve lost and add ANOTHER 15 to it.  Then when you look in the mirror or bend over to tie your shoes, or swimsuit weather comes around again (and it WILL come around again I promise)… how you gonna feel?  I’ll TELL you how you’re gonna feel.  You WILL feel AND look like a fat beached whale that can’t bend a knee or elbow without screaming, much less throw a Frisbee to your son or practice sparring with him.  SO GET YOUR @SS IN GEAR, GET OUT OF THIS BED, AND GET WITH THE PROGRAM BEFORE THE PROGRAM FORGETS ABOUT YOU.  YOU’RE NOT THE QUEEN.  YOU’RE A MOM AND A WIFE AND STILL YOUNG ENOUGH TO HAVE A FLIPPEN LIFE.  GET MOVIN!!!

 (Sooooooo, does anyone else have these kind of thoughts while they are laying in bed at 4:30 in the morning, slapping the snooze alarm, with it raining and lightening (yes, it’s STILL raining here), and you just lay there and groan and keep telling yourself 5 more minutes until finally the only time you have left is showering and getting dressed for work? If no one else has thoughts like these, then please put a straight jacket on me and send me to the loony bin.  Otherwise, please listen to my thoughts and do what I FINALLY did this morning…. GET MOVIN!! ) 

Time is precious, Shanna.  This is the only life you have to live.  So LIVE it and don’t let it pass you by, with only regrets as your memories.  Make the most of your day.  Don’t mess it up.  You are one of the lucky ones.  You can still “get movin”.  There’s a lot of people that can’t.  Don’t waste what God gave you, which is the ability to make CHOICES.  Free will Shanna.  You are blessed with two arms and two legs and you still have your health.  Don’t flippen waste it girlfriend.